Wednesday, June 18, 2008


There is an email going around that starts "I believe..." and one of the things listed is "I believe...we can do something in an instant that will change our lives forever." -- isn't that true? Isn't that the very essence of trust? We trust people with ourselves, our true selves, and they make decisions, in an instant, that change things.

It's hard for me to make friends. I don't trust easily. But when I do finally make a friend, I feel like it's a good, true friendship. Not shallow. Not superficial. Maybe that's my downfall. Maybe I shouldn't value friendship so much. Because when a friend betrays my trust, I feel as if my entire world has been turned upside down.

Am I the only one who feels like this? When a friend does something hurtful, is it the end of the friendship? I have difficulty recovering from betrayal. I know it's a character flaw. And yet...I still cannot get past the feeling of being let down. Of being hurt. Of trust being broken. Of wondering when it will happen again.

There are very few people that I let know the 'real' me. And when those people let me down I become so disappointed...


Debbie Does Nothing said...

That is so true. The funny thing is, strangers on the internet know more about me than the people I'm closest to in real life.